最怕突然看见你朋友圈换新照片头像。

仍是你一个人的黑衣单人照。

可是看了这张照片自己脑海里开始循环《分手快乐》,听得有种一滴眼泪都流不下来的疲惫。

明明坐在有暖气的家里,还给爸妈做了香辣鱿鱼。然而心里仓皇窘迫的像个流浪小孩,在南方城市的冬天里裹上了羽绒服,却被夜晚突如其来的一场大雨淋湿。那种湿冷,不会把人冻僵,但是你的脸,鼻子永远是红红的,红红的双手紧紧地蜷缩在衣兜里,一直冷的暖不过来。


啊,要哭啊,要是能像演员一样说哭就哭有时候也不错。

可惜自己一个人时自己哭更是对自己输了。

我才不哭,莫名其妙有什么好哭的。

眼睛和鼻子木然、冷漠、麻木的一点反应也没有。


开始自己给自己念《泰坦尼克号》里Jack死前留给Rose的话:

“Listen, Rose. You're going to get out of here. You're going to go on. You're going to make lots of babies, and you're going to watch them grow. You' re going to die and old, an old lady in her warm bed, not here, not this night, not like this. Do you understand me?”

“Promise me that you'll survive, that you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me, now, Rose, and never let go of that promise, never let go.”


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